Epiphany

There's been unforgettable moments in my life which I will cherish forever. As much as we hope for infertility to vanish because it's affecting our personal life, it's not going to happen. It will always be a part of us regardless if we get our happy ending. J has done a fabulous job expressing his perspective  in a manner that I won't misunderstand. I don't want to be a bitter, miserable infertile. I truly want to be able to embrace every moment of my life without having a pity party about how bad my life sucks. 

Truth is, my life doesn't suck. I'm truly blessed in ways that I need to start embracing. Let's start with my niece who officially became my goddaughter two weeks ago. 

This day will forever stay in my heart. I got to see a part of J that I haven't had the pleasure to see. He attended to her every need and, even though he talked during church, he answered every question she had about what was going on. 

After this day I have been able to cherish this little one more and more. She's such a character and like every little kid she says she's a big girl. I can't wait to see what her little sister will be like. 

I also got to meet and greet the new member of our family. My cousin's baby was born on Friday. I didn't get the pleasure of holding him because she was pumping so we were out in the hall, apparently they don't think it's safe to carry a baby in the hallway. BUT I did get to touch his smooth beautiful face, hands, and toes!! Best moment of my life. 

This photo took my breath away. It was such an amazing view to see big brother take notice of his baby brother. He's not fond of his name so he personally took it upon himself to name his baby brother. My aunt of course wasn't surprise because my cousin did the same thing when his baby brother was born. Like father like son. 

We also celebrated a birthday party for a 3 year old. Let's just say we enjoyed it more than the little ones. 

This upcoming weekend is my sister in laws shower. I still haven't decided what to buy but I'm sure once I'm standing in front of all this baby stuff I will just know.