How do you?

I am having a difficult time trying to keep the awesome news from my mom. When they came back from their lovely vacation I just wanted to shout out, "Mom, I'm pregnant! I'm finally pregnant!!"  Although I had to hold it in. Why? Because I don't want to get her excited and things go wrong. We are hoping to tell her after our first ultrasound. I initially wanted to wait until the second ultrasound but after being around her I realized it's going to be quite difficult. 

As soon as she saw me she asked when we were going back to the doctors. I couldn't look at her in the face when I lied to her. Did she believe me? I really don't know, I hope. Besides my mother I am hoping to personally tell my grandmother in person when she comes visit in February. After she knows then I really don't care who knows. My mother and my grandmother are the ones I hope to see their reactions an possibly tears? 

J is still in the denial boat. He says he believes I'm pregnant but he doesn't want to get excited because anything can happen. I get it but I wish he was going nuts like I am. I've never ever in my life seen two beautiful lines in a HPT! So this feels surreal to me. I'm excited. I'm worried. Etc. I guess I'll let him eventually get there. 

Today I wore my charm bracelet to my BETA because I wore it to my FET and it brought me luck. On my bracelet I added a pendant my grandmother gave to me a couple years ago. J kept telling me I was going to lose it to take it off. Well sad to say he was right. I had it on this morning for my BETA and by the time I got to work it was gone. (Sigh) God is good because I got a call from my clinic and it was one of the nurses that is only there on Fridays. She is familiar with me because we have the same last name. Hehehe. Anyway, she said she found my pendant and had a feeling it was mine. Aww. She held it for me and I went to go pick it up during my lunch. Not even a minute later after I picked it up my nurse called me giving me my BETA #. At 4 weeks & 1 day it's at 251. I won't go back for a 2nd one until Tuesday. I'm ok with that I have faith things will be ok. What I'm having a hard time with though are the PIO shots. My behind is hurting and J thinks he is hurting me so he is having a hard time giving them to me now. This is all going to be worth it! 

Happy Friday Everyone! Hope everyone has a great weekend.