I was devastated when I miscarried a week before a wedding we had to attend in California. My mind was going in circles thinking how they're going to get pregnant before us, etc. Once we were there in took me a day to wrap my head around everything. Then I was able to enjoy our getaway. Before we left on Thursday I received this email and it changed my perspective.
Everything happens for a reason. We may not understand the reason behind the why but I have faith he has a plan for us.
The wedding ended up being a blast. I was elated that my best friend in HS was marrying the love of her life. J and the groom were next door neighbors throughout their childhood, so their wedding was special to both of us. Although I dislike when people ask about having kids I dared to ask it myself. Which led to a very long/emotional conversation. I advised her against waiting so long to start having their first kid. I actually encouraged her to start trying. With tears in her eyes and a few hug exchanges she expressed her sadness for our losses. Of course she still wants to be able to travel and enjoy her marriage a bit but said she might consider not waiting for as long as she wants to.
A few other HS friends I had personal conversations with also expressed their sadness. One even admitted she hasn't been able to conceive since her miscarriage back in HS. I saw the worry in her face and it broke my heart. I'm grateful to have had the opportunity to vent my feelings without these ladies dismissing my pain.
On Thursday I will be going in for blood work to check my hcg levels. Personally I think they're probably at 0 or close to. I stopped bleeding on Saturday and have occasional spotting. My only concern is that I either have a UTI or infection. Fx that it isn't anything major.
Amen! Love when God gives us a word just at the perfect timing! You look gorgeous - so glad you still went and had a good time!!!Keep us updated on your blood test!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you were able to have a good time after all. I'm sure being able to talk to the other ladies helped as well.
ReplyDeleteYou look beautiful and what a precious couple you and your hubby make :)
I think I ended up w/ some type of infection after our miscarriage, just adds to the misery right?! Hoping everything checks out ok for you though!
You look gorgeous, love the dress! Glad you had a good time and were able to have some good conversations. Hoping everything checks out ok this week!
ReplyDeleteYou looked beautiful at the wedding!! Thinking of you :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a sport you are for attending that wedding. Glad you didn't let those pesky fears of them getting preggo first cloud your whole experience. You and your man look so cute together! Hope you have a great follow-up as far as being able to move on.
ReplyDeleteYou look gorgeous!! Love your dress. I'm so glad you were able to enjoy yourself and had such supportive people around you. Good luck with your blood tests on Thursday. Praying that everything looks great, so you can move forward.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all you are beautiful! Second of all I am so glad you were able to reconnect with your friends and talk about your grief. It always helps to talk about what is happening and I'm glad your friends so receptive. Sending you love!
ReplyDeleteYou look amazing! Love all the photos! I know these types of events can be hard! There's always the chance that someone there will be pregnant too and then you have to face them as well, but it sounds like you stayed strong! Good for you girl!
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