Shit just got real

They are finally here!! My meds of course. For some reason I thought I would hyperventilate when they arrived but I was just a bit overwhelmed seeing all those needles. I began to question if I was ready. Could I proceed with this? Forget the fact that I already paid for the meds. Or that I paid for surgery. Was I mentally ready to move forward with IVF? 

I expressed my concerns with J and his response was if your not ready then we don't have to move forward. Guess what?? I nearly lost my mind and began to mention all the reason I couldn't stop everything. As scared as I am the outcome is what allows me to move forward. I'm not getting a 100% guarantee that a baby will be the outcome BUT just the thought helps me move forward. 

Fear aside I am ready to get poked. No not really but I will try my best to hold the tears back. Good news is that J was able to get a schedule change so he will be with me incase I can't find the strength to stab myself. Eeek!


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8 comments:

  1. It's so overwhelming when those meds show up at your doorstep. You will become a pro in no time, and if it leads to a baby then it will ALL be worth it! GL girlie!

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  2. you can do it! think of everyone else out there that is muddling through and doing it! the first few pricks are the hardest to get through. i prefered doing it myself than having my hubby do it for me (he also was at work most of the time). it was a control thing for me, but either way, good luck!

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  3. Good luck!! The first injection is the hardest but I promise it does get easier :)

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  4. Yay for shit getting real!! I agree, first shot is the hardest...you'll be fine, just think of what's at the end of all this waiting for you!

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  5. Big hugs. Jojo you are strong. You got this. Praying for you guys, as always!

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  6. The first shot is soooo traumatic. But it's amazing what you can get used to. Good luck! I'm cheering you on!

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  7. This is pretty exciting! Seeing all the meds is crazy, but you'll do just fine!!!

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  8. You can do it! I'm on day 2 of my Lupron shots! Once I did that first one, I felt so much better! Not as bad as I thought! It's all for a good reason, right? :)

    Ashley
    Man and Wife and Two Fur Babies

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