GAME PLAN...

FOR THIS NEW CYCLE HAS BEEN SET. I CALLED MY RE'S OFFICE TODAY TO PAY J'S SA THAT WAS DECLINED BY HIS INSURANCE. WHILE I WAS AT IT I LEFT THE NURSES A VM THAT I WAS ON CD 2. SURPRISINGLY NURSE M CALLED IN A TIMELY MANNER. WE DISCUSSED THE ROUTES I CAN GO. SHE BASICALLY STATED THAT DR. M DIDNT STATE IF HE WANTED TO GIVE THE HSG ANOTHER SHOT. SHE ASKED IF I WANTED TO GIVE IT A THIRD ATTEMPT OR IF I WANTED TO GO WITH A CLOMID CYCLE. I ASKED HER IF THEY PERFORMED FEMVUE AT THEIR CLINIC. SHE WASNT FAMILIAR WITH THIS AT ALL, SHE PLACED ME ON HOLD AND WENT TO GO ASK A DR. WHEN SHE CAME BACK ON THE LINE SHE STATED THAT DR. N SAID THE ONLY THING THEY CAN PERFORM AT THEIR CLINIC WAS NOT TO DETERMINE IF MY TUBES WERE BLOCKED OR NOT. BUT HE KNEW SOME GOOD RADIOLOGIST THAT CAN PERFORM MY HSG. ISSUE: MY INSURANCE WONT COVER IT.

SO WHAT DID WE DECIDE? WE DECIDED TO GO FOR A CLOMID CYCLE + IUI. SHE GAVE ME THE OPTION TO DO TIME INTERCOURSE OR IUI. I DECIDED TO GO WITH THE IUI BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN DOING TIME INTERCOURSE FOR HOW LONG NOW? I THOUGHT I WOULD BE ECSTATIC FOR THIS DAY TO COME BUT TO BE HONEST I AM KINDA SCARED. WHY? I AM SCARED TO SEE THAT IT DIDNT WORK. WHAT WOULD BE OUR NEXT STEP? WOULD I SEE MY HAPPY ENDING IN ALL THIS? J HASNT REALLY SAID MUCH ABOUT IT. I THINK HE FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT IT NOT WORKING. I KNOW I SHOULDN'T EXPECT OUR FIRST IUI TO WORK AND MAYBE THE SECOND OR THIRD TIME WOULD BE A CHARM. I JUST DONT KNOW. I DIDNT HAVE THIS IN MIND FOR THIS CYCLE. I ACTUALLY HAD PURCHASED A FERTILITY CLEANSE TO DO THIS CYCLE. THINKING I WOULDN'T DO MY IUI UNTIL NEXT CYCLE. I COULD HAVE WAITED UNTIL NEXT CYCLE TO START MY MEDICATED CYCLE BUT I AM TIRED OF WAITING. MAYBE I AM RUSHING INTO THIS.....UGH!

I NEED TO RELAX AND NOT LET MY FEAR TAKE OVER. POSITIVE THOUGHTS!! WEDNESDAY IS MY SONOGRAM THEN I GET MY PRESCRIPTION AND START TAKING IT CD 5-9. I BELIEVE I DONT REALLY KNOW. I WILL UPDATE ALL THIS ONCE I GO IN TO MY APPOINTMENT.